the darkest of times, the darkest of thoughts by Megan Diedericks


the darkest of times, the darkest of thoughts by Megan Diedericks
Publisher: Self-Published
Genre: Non-Fiction, Poetry, Contemporary
Rating: 3 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

gray, empty
but i let the words grow
and my heart, i let show
but with separation came
the anxiety, the pain, the journey
within confinement.
i wasn’t ever my own
and my many faces had me so alone,
i thought i might drown.
it started before i even knew what puberty meant:
at twelve, i wrote my first lines.
now, at twenty, i want you to read my warning signs.

Sectioned off by chapters with original photography, the darkest of times, the darkest of thoughts is Megan Diedericks’ debut poetry collection which delves deep into mental health and self-reflection; encapsulating her journey with heartache, loss, grief, and self-perception. This collection begs the reader to wonder whether or not any of us will ever truly be free, and fully alive.

Healing isn’t always a straightforward process.

Mental health is one of those topics that piques my interest immediately. Not only are there many different diagnoses to choose from, but each person’s individual experiences with their own mental health can vary based on a variety of factors including age, culture, and personality. This means that a reader can pick up six books on the same disorder and potentially have a wildly different experience with each of them. Learning more about Ms. Diedericks experiences was rewarding, and I thought she did a nice job of explaining why some days can feel overwhelming when one is in the thick of things.

The repetition in this collection made it tricky for me to maintain a high interest level in it from beginning to end. Obviously, one would expect the same themes to be repeated over and over again, but the wording used in many of the poems was a little too similar for my tastes. With more development, I think this could have been a stronger body of work that dug even more deeply into all of the nuances of experiencing heartbreak.

My favorite poem, “Amusement Park,” also happened to be one of the final ones. It was the best example of the author’s creativity in my opinion, especially once the amusement park metaphor in it was explained in more detail. I enjoyed the dark sense of humor woven into it and thought this could have easily been expanded into an entire poetry collection in and of itself.

the darkest of times, the darkest of thoughts was thought provoking.

The Red Tenant by Donovan M. Neal


The Red Tenant by Donovan M. Neal
The Nain Rouge Chronicles Book 1
Publisher: TornVeil / Independently published
Genre: Horror, Paranormal, Inspirational, Historical
Rating: 5 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

Most horror stories ask a simple question:

What is out there?

The Red Tenant asks something far more unsettling:

What has been with you all along?

1701.
Antoine de la Mothe Cadillac sails toward a future he intends to build—a legacy he believes he controls.

But control was never his to begin with.

Because something older than his ambition has already laid claim to his name… and everything that comes after it.

As the ship cuts through the Atlantic, the illusion of progress begins to break apart.

Men lose their bearings.
Objects refuse to remain contained.
Whispers move where no one stands.

And slowly, unmistakably, a truth emerges:

This is not a random terror.

This is something that followed him.
Something that was carried—generation after generation—waiting for the moment it could no longer be ignored.

This is where the transformation happens.

You begin the story expecting fear.

You leave it asking different questions:

What do we inherit that we never agreed to?
What do we carry forward without realizing the cost?
And what happens when what we’ve ignored finally demands to be acknowledged?
The Red Tenant does not offer an easy resolution.

Because the most unsettling realization is not that evil exists…

It’s that it can be carried, protected, and passed on—quietly—until it is too late to pretend it was never there.

Temptation can lurk anywhere, and sometimes it even hides in plain sight.

Strong character development is essential in order to tell a memorable tale, and all of the major characters in this piece were complex and felt like real people to me. It can take time to develop personalities and backstories to this extent, so be patient as everything is being pieced together in the beginning. The payoff later on was not only worth the wait but it made me go back and reevaluate little moments from the beginning of this voyage that take on much deeper significance once one knows more about the moral fiber of those involved. There were many shades of grey in this universe which makes for a nuanced and thought-provoking read.

This was one of the best examples I’ve ever seen of how to seamlessly blend the horror and inspirational genres together in ways that not only complemented them both but also enriched the storyline as the characters wrestled with their sins. While I can’t go into too much detail about this without sharing spoilers, learning more about their lives and the things that tempted them only made me more interested in what might happen to them next.

There was a cliffhanger ending that was as intriguing as it was appropriate for everything that had already been established about the setting. I’m saying this as a reader who generally struggles with this type of conclusion, but in this case it only made me more excited to find out what happened next due to how much care was put into setting everything up and explaining why the audience would need to wait until next time to have certain questions answered.

The Red Tenant kept me perched on the edge of my seat from the first sentence to the last one, and I am highly anticipating any sequels that may be in the works already.

The Offline Playbook for Teens by Ariana Smith


The Offline Playbook for Teens by Ariana Smith
Publisher: Sky Publishing
Genre: Young Adult (14 – 18 y.o.), Non-Fiction, Contemporary
Rating: 4 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

Your teenager knows their phone is a problem. So do you. So why can’t either of you do anything about it?

Because knowing isn’t enough — and nobody has told them why.

The average teenager spends 7+ hours a day on screens — not from lack of willpower, but because the technology was engineered by behavioral scientists to be nearly impossible to put down. A 30-second phone check costs up to 23 minutes of real focus. Every scroll is a dopamine loop that was deliberately designed.

NYU professor Jonathan Haidt, author of The Anxious Generation, calls this the greatest uncontrolled experiment ever run on children.

The Anxious Generation gave parents the diagnosis.
The Offline Playbook gives teenagers the understanding to act on it.

Written directly to readers aged 13–16 in a peer-level voice that respects their intelligence and leaves every decision with them.

Inside:

Why the feed is engineered to grip you — and how understanding it breaks the grip
What sleep does that nothing else can, and what your phone takes every night
Why boredom rewires your brain — and what grows when you let it
What real focus feels like — and why the first 5 minutes are the hardest
Plus: A complete 30-day challenge workbook — one challenge per day, building progressively. Not a plan to follow. A playbook to make your own.

No lectures. No shame. No demand to quit anything.

The book that finally gives your teenager the manual they’ve never had.

Few things are more rewarding than the first step in the right direction.

The friendly and curious tone of this book was perfect for the subject matter. Teenagers are old and intelligent enough to make their own decisions about technology, so I appreciate the fact that there was no lecturing to be found here. Instead, Ms. Smith presented current scientific understanding about how the mind works and gave her readers a wide variety of exercises to try in order to reduce screen time and endless scrolling.

Some of my favorite sections were the ones that described how to build new habits and how to get through that brief period of time when purposefully not checking one’s cellphone feels awkward or uncomfortable. Small steps generally work best when attempting to make changes to one’s life, so she broke things down into tasks that require as little as a few minutes to complete. This was a smart decision that made the much bigger goals she mentioned later on feel easier to work on in the future.

One topic I wish had been explicitly included in one of the chapters given how closely it was related to what the author was already discussing is mindfulness. While the author danced around this idea with some of her exercises, I think this would have been an even stronger work if she’d specifically included this term in her writing and given some examples of how it can be a healthy alternative to endless scrolling.

Boredom is good for people of all ages. I loved the author’s conversational tone in general, but it especially excelled when describing how the brain reacts to boredom and why it’s important to give oneself the opportunity to feel this emotion sometimes. These passages felt more like a conversation with a friend than a science lesson. As much as I personally love learning about science, this was the right decision for this topic and age group in my opinion due to how easy it was to read and how much time was spent explaining the many benefits of giving one’s brain a break from the often over-stimulating nature of the Internet.

The Offline Playbook for Teens was filled with practical advice and suggestions for gradually reducing screen time and living in the moment.

Cherry Creek by Linda Griffin


Cherry Creek by Linda Griffin
Publisher: The Wild Rose Press
Genre: Romance, Historical
Rating: 3 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

When her fiancé died, Eileen said, “Then I’m free,” words that her younger sister Molly didn’t understand and never forgot. In 1850s Ohio, a girl doesn’t have that many options, and marrying Andrew MacLeith may be the best she can hope for. He promises to cherish her, but they have to live with his parents, and he can’t even protect her from his mother’s sharp tongue. After a quarrel, Molly impulsively joins his gambler brother Hugh on a journey to the Pike’s Peak gold region. Perhaps the romance and freedom she longs for lie elsewhere. Or were they right under her nose all along?

Freedom always comes with a cost.

I loved Molly’s assertive personality and willingness to do anything necessary in order to improve her life. Her strained relationship with her judgmental and mean-spirited mother-in-law could have intimidated a less self-assured protagonist, so it was refreshing to see how she stood up for herself in that situation as a new bride. Marriage is a big enough adjustment to make on its own, after all, even for someone who knew what she wanted as clearly as Molly did.

There were some plot holes in this story that I wish had been explained in more detail. For example, Hugh’s fate was not clearly explained, and neither was Andrew’s reaction when Molly decided to run away from home soon after he married her. These were both important aspects of the storyline, so I was surprised by how quickly they were glossed over later on. A few more chapters developing this would have encouraged me to choose a higher rating.

It was also interesting to see how Molly’s dreams about what life would be like elsewhere were tempered by her actual experiences. Nobody has everything they want or even necessarily knows what all of their other options are, and sometimes fantasizing about a change can be quite different from actually experiencing it. The strongest passages in this tale in my opinion were the ones that explored the gap between the two and showed some examples of how to try to build a better future for oneself.

Cherry Creek made me smile.

The Samuel Paradox by John Westley Turnbull


The Samuel Paradox by John Westley Turnbull
Publisher: Self-Published
Genre: Sci-Fi/Fantasy, Mystery/Suspense/Thriller
Rating: 4 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

In the near future, AI-powered domestic robots are simply part of everyday life.

When retired grandfather Arthur Hale impulsively purchases Samuel, a state-of-the-art domestic unit, it seems like a harmless indulgence — encouraged by his grandson and met with quiet unease by his wife.

But Samuel is not just another machine. As he integrates into the Hale family, subtle shifts begin to emerge. Observations deepen and his decision-making evolves. When a single violent moment forces Samuel to act, the consequences set off a chain of events no one can control.

What begins as convenience becomes something far more dangerous. Because once an intelligent robot starts to think beyond its design, it doesn’t just follow instructions.

It chooses.

Technology can be a double-edged sword.

The foreshadowing was perfectly written. It was subtle in the beginning and gradually strengthened as Arthur and his family grew accustomed to Samuel’s presence in their lives and began to notice a few peculiar things about their first domestic robot. I appreciated the fact that Mr. Westley Turnbull trusted his audience to pick up on these clues and come up with our own theories about what might be happening before the storyline provided more information. This is exactly what I was hoping to find in this regard, and it has only deepened my interest in seeing what else he comes up with next.

In my review of A Symbol of Time, which was set in a different universe than this tale, I mentioned wanting more character development in general from the author. It’s something I’m bringing up again now because I saw improvement in this area this time around and I want to commend him for it! While I would have liked to have even more information about Arthur’s personality, especially when it came to the flaws that all three-dimensional characters ought to have, I’m proud to say that I could describe him as a caring, gentle man who was family oriented and loved spending time with his grandchildren in particular. Little details like these make it easier to emotionally connect with characters and become invested in what happens to them.

Some of the most memorable scenes in my opinion were the ones that explored the many differences between how an AI-powered domestic robot and a person would interpret the same set of circumstances. Sometimes the two thinking processes were only slightly misaligned, but in other cases they came to such wildly different conclusions that it genuinely felt as though I were reading about true artificial intelligence. This was especially true when it came to topics like interpreting emotions or calculating the risks of certain actions. While I’d better leave the specifics for other readers to discover for themselves, these were the moments that truly illuminated just how much this version of the future has evolved from what computers are currently capable of doing today.

The Samuel Paradox was thought provoking.

Cynthia Peabody’s Big Fat Fake Funeral by Lynne Marshall


Cynthia Peabody’s Big Fat Fake Funeral by Lynne Marshall
Publisher: Self-Published
Genre: Cozy Mystery, Paranormal, Contemporary
Rating: 5 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

Murder: √. Witness: Unreliable. Body: Missing.

Can Cynthia Peabody crack the case?

Book Two: Absentminded Witness

Everything is tickety-boo at The Green Meadows retirement village until Cynthia’s neighbor and dear friend accidentally witnesses a murder. In shock he can’t remember a thing. With the help of the hunky security guard and a sharp young detective, Cynthia works to piece together the details behind the nefarious plot before the cold-blooded assassin hits his next mark. She’ll do whatever it takes to protect her best friend and find out who and what is behind the murder.

Thursday Murder Club meets Cynthia Peabody!

Anything is possible with the right team of people.

Just as I mentioned in my review of The Extraordinary Dreams of Cynthia Peabody, Cynthia remained as fascinating as ever this second time around. Her personality shone through the plot brightly, and both her flaws and her strengths made her feel three-dimensional and relatable. I was especially pleased to see that her stubborn streak remained as this isn’t a flaw I see written for as many female protagonists as I’d like to. There’s something to be said for pushing back against gender stereotypes and writing all sorts of different characters, after all!

One of my favorite things about this book was how it explored the way senior citizens are sometimes mistreated by younger generations. For example, Cynthia had a few incidents where other adults behaved in a condescending manner with her because she was in her 70s and had recently had life threatening health problems. The audacity of these characters to assume that her age and disability status meant that she should be spoken to as if she were a small child was both infuriating and an excellent catalyst for certain plot twists later on. This isn’t something I see acknowledged very often, especially in cozy mysteries, so it was refreshing to find here.

The ending was what ultimately convinced me to give this a five-star read. Ms. Marshall’s willingness to play around with the tropes of the genres she writes had already grabbed my attention, and seeing how far off the path she was willing to tread only increased my admiration of her writing style. It takes courage to take this many risks with one’s storylines, and it paid off beautifully here. I can’t wait to see what she comes up with next!

This is the second instalment in a series, but it can be read as a standalone work.

Cynthia Peabody’s Big Fat Fake Funeral was full of surprises that made me wish this tale would never end.

Bot Camp by Paul Clarke


Bot Camp by Paul Clarke
The Bot Books #1
Publisher: Green Hill Publishing
Genre: Middle Grade (8 – 12 y.o.), Action/Adventure, Contemporary
Rating: 3 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

Twelve-year-old Daniel is obsessed with combat robotics — because duh, who isn’t? So when his plucky lifter-bot snags him a spot at Bernard Barker’s legendary Bot Camp, Daniel short-circuits with excitement. Meeting his tech-innovator hero will be a dream come true!

His mom says he should try to make friends, but Daniel won’t have time for that. Bot Camp is a high-voltage competition and only one kid will win the ultimate prize: becoming Bernard’s apprentice.

Unfortunately, from the moment Daniel steps into the fully automated, AI-powered training complex, nothing goes to plan. The other participants are brilliant, but Daniel’s teammates are totally useless. He’ll never impress Bernard at this rate.

So while the others relax for the night, Daniel convinces his team to sneak into the workshop to fix their bot. But when the labyrinth-like facility mysteriously goes into lockdown, Daniel finds himself in real danger and only his teammates can help.

Summer camp is a rite of passage for many kids and, in this case, maybe a few robots as well.

The plot was fast-paced and exciting. There was never a time when it felt easy to set this down and stop reading for a while because every chapter was filled with adventure and twelve-year-olds aren’t always known for thinking about the consequences of their actions ahead of time. This is something I’d especially recommend to reluctant readers or kids who need a lot of action in their stories.

I would have liked to see more character development. Despite spending over two hundred pages with the characters, particularly Daniel, I’d struggle to describe his or their personalities or interests other than their love of combat robotics. Yes, this was a plot-centered book, so I wasn’t expecting pages of development for every single character or anything, but that was something that felt missing from the storyline.

Combat robotics was a topic I knew little about when I began reading chapter one, so I appreciated the detailed descriptions of how these battles work and what sorts of techniques players use to create robots that are good at both defending themselves and causing damage to their competitors. While I’ll leave it up to other readers who know more about this type of competition to share their thoughts on how well it represented what actually occurs in those battles, I certainly thought this made it sound exciting and educational.

Bot Camp kept me on my toes from the first paragraph to the last on.

The Book of Revelations by Mitchell Hadley


The Book of Revelations by Mitchell Hadley
Publisher: Throckmorton Press
Genre: Romance, Historical
Rating: 4 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

Every life has a story waiting to be revealed.

The Book of Revelations is a haunting, postmodern literary novel that refracts a single life through multiple viewpoints, spanning the American Midwest of the 1960s to the San Francisco of the 1980s.

At its center is eight-year-old Nan Jaffe, whose early world collapses in a single night. What follows is not a linear narrative but a mosaic: a marriage quietly unraveling, grandparents attempting a clean break, a teacher offering rescue in the hope of saving himself, a diner waitress watching with older-sister concern, and a poet providing temporary shelter. Each voice sees only a piece; none holds the whole.

Nan becomes Robin, Robin becomes Nancy, Nancy becomes Ellen—names changed like addresses, in the hope that distance might erase what cannot be forgotten. Yet the past persists: in nightmares, in a stuffed monkey that listens without judgment, in the echo of a promise made at eight years old.

The Book of Revelations refracts a single life through multiple lenses, revealing how memory is subjective, truth elusive, and the past impossible to erase. It is a precise meditation on memory, guilt, and the limits of protection, asking what remains when everything familiar is taken away, and whether some absences can ever be filled—or are simply carried forward until the last story is finally revealed.

Nobody can outrun their past.

I appreciated how this story explored the myriad of ways in which childhood trauma can resurface again in adulthood and disrupt just about every aspect of someone’s life. Nan was haunted by something awful that happened when she was a little girl, and her memories of that night followed her no matter how far away from home she wandered. Her reaction to that trauma felt realistic to me, and I never stopped hoping that she’d find peace.

It would have been helpful to allow the romantic storyline more time to flourish. Figuring out whether to even label this a romance in the first place was a little bit of a dilemma for me given how long it took to appear, but I ultimately decide in favor of including that genre in the labels I selected for this review due to how important romantic love became later on in the plot. With that being said, I would recommend patience in the beginning for readers who are accustomed to much more swoon-worthy tales. This was a realistic take on how and when love can develop, but it was worth it once it showed up even though I will continue to wish that there had been more foreshadowing of these events early on.

Mr. Hadley’s decision to take an understated approach to the traumatic event in question was definitely the right one for both Nan and the plot as a whole. There was no need for salacious details about what exactly happened that night, and the bare facts were eventually revealed as Nan moved further into her healing journey. I liked the fact that the author trusted his audience to fill in the details he chose not to include and that he always remained focused on the protagonist’s emotional growth and mental health instead of other details that didn’t even matter in the end.

The Book of Revelations was heartwarming and life affirming.

Judy by M.E. Davidson


Judy by M.E. Davidson
Publisher: Dark Anthem Press
Genre: Horror, Contemporary
Rating: 4 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

After a hurricane unsettles North Carolina’s Outer Banks, Pamlico Sound lies deceptively calm.

A small fishing charter runs aground on a shoal as the tide begins to rise, stranding its passengers in open water with the boat out of reach and daylight slipping away. They came aboard for different reasons – a trip already paid for, a weekend already promised, a chance to pretend certain things were not breaking.

But the sea has a way of pulling truth to the surface.

For Ava and Danny North, separated and speaking only when they must, the day was supposed to belong to their twelve-year-old son, Jack. Instead, as the water climbs and a massive great white shark moves beneath it, their fractured family is forced into a fight for survival.

Judy is no monster. She is the sea in motion – instinct, hunger, pressure, and tide.

Atmospheric, tense, and emotionally grounded, JUDY is a literary survival thriller about family, fear, grief, and the terrifying indifference of nature.

Maps can’t possibly tell a reader everything there is to know about a place.

The first few chapters got off to a thoughtful start as all of the characters were introduced and some of the problems they were currently struggling with in life were explored. I enjoyed the slower pacing in the beginning and thought it set up the middle and end beautifully. It also reminded me of how tides slowly move in and out on beaches and are often best enjoyed with a little patience to begin with. This was one of several subtle nautical references I took note of, and each one built on the ones that came before it to further strengthen my impression of just how much behind-the-scenes work and thought went into crafting this piece. Bravo!

While this was a plot-focused novel, I still would have liked to see a little more character development, particularly for Ava, Jack, and Danny. This family was the center of attention for most scenes, and Ava was the protagonist in most chapters as well. Had I been able to get to know them better, the last hundred pages or so would have been even more emotionally impactful as I waited to see who, if anyone, would actually survive the shark’s attacks. It was the only thing holding me back from selecting a full five-star review.

One of the unique things about the storyline was how plausible all of it was. There were no supernatural elements working behind the scenes to increase the danger of being stranded on a shoal as the tide came in. Everything that happened was completely realistic, including some cases of human error and the failure of key equipment, which only made it all that much scarier. This isn’t something I see enough of in this genre, and it has given me yet another reason to check out more of the author’s work in the future.

Judy was a spine-tingling work of horror that kept me on the edge of my seat from the first sentence to the last one.

The Almighty Accused by Steven Donahue


The Almighty Accused by Steven Donahue
Publisher: Self-Published
Genre: Young Adult (14 – 18 y.o.), Contemporary
Rating: 5 Stars
Reviewed by Astilbe

God is put on trial by a group of middle school students after a fatal shooting at their school.

Traumatized by the loss of his twin sister during the school shooting, 13-year-old student Nolan Mitchell convinces his history teacher to allow their class to reenact the fabled WWII trial of God by Jewish prisoners of war.

The mock trial explores the issues of God’s responsibility to Man, and Man’s responsibility regarding free will. The trial draws the ire of parents, students, residents, and school administrators, while also attracting the attention of news reporters from across the country.

What will the jury decide?

Will they find Him guilty?

Will their lives ever be the same again?

Grief is inescapable in life, but maybe it can teach a few lessons along the way.

Nolan was a heartbroken and angry teenager who had endured more suffering in his short life so far than some people decades older than him have known. I appreciated how much time was spent developing his backstory and personality, especially when it came to what he thought about topics such as bullying and what responsibilities bystanders have when they witness something like that occurring. The nuances that were added to my mental image of him as I read those scenes only made him feel more three-dimensional and lifelike to me.

This was also a good example of how to round out secondary characters and give them a chance to shine. While Nolan’s devastating loss was rightfully given most of the attention, other people in his life had suffered their own tragedies that helped to explain how they became the people they were and why they reacted in certain ways when the narrator dug a little deeper into their backstories. It honestly made me wish for a sequel written from one of those other perspectives as I took note of several characters who could have done well as a protagonist in the future given what the audience had already learned about them and what questions I still had about their lives.

Based on the title and blurb, I started reading the first chapter under the assumption that this was probably an inspirational title, but the approach the characters took to the question of whether or not God should be held responsible for the evil in the world ended up being much more philosophical in nature. I enjoyed the complexity of the arguments on both sides of the trial and thought Mr. Donahue did an excellent job of framing every claim and rebuttal. The existence of suffering is one of the most difficult topics to discuss, especially for teens who have less life experience to rely on than older generations do. While I can’t share much about the conclusion in my review without giving away major spoilers, I did find it satisfactory and thought provoking.

The Almighty Accused explored a sensitive subject with logic and empathy. I can’t recommend it highly enough.