"How far do you think we have to
go?"
Lillian's question came at
what Gordon guessed was the five mile mark. Although in the
dark, on an unfamiliar road, in the middle of August, he
really couldn't judge. Another five miles? Or perhaps fifty.
"Until what?" Every stone,
every pebble bit through the thin soles of his Italian
loafers. "We drop dead from exhaustion?"
"Maybe we should check the
map," Lillian said.
Gravel stopped crunching
behind him. Gordon turned. Lillian's white T-shirt shimmered
like a ghost above the dirt road, her black hair and dark
jeans fading into the night. The sky held only a sliver of
moon. Thick, humid air felt like film clouding his eyes.
Check the map. A reasonable
suggestion, assuming there was light, which there wasn't.
"With what?" he asked.
"My key chain."
Yes, of course. "That makes
perfect sense."
She didn't respond to his
words or their sarcastic tone. Lillian's knapsack-style
purse thumped on the ground. A moment later, a penlight
sliced through the dark.
"See?" she said, rattling the
keys. The thin beam of light flickered and bounced.
"Clever, sweetheart. Now
where's the map?"
"You have it."
Silence bloomed between them.
For the first time since they started their trek, Gordon
noticed the noises of the night. Tall cornstalks lined the
road, and something rustled in the inky void they created.
Mosquitoes nattered in his ears.
"Gordon?" Her voice cracked,
just slightly. "Don't you have the map?"
"I thought you had it."
"I told you to take it," she
said.
"Why would I when you carry
around everything in that damn knapsack of yours."
Silence again. A thrashing
came from the cornfield. Gordon jumped and backed toward the
center of the road. "What the hell was that?"
"Just some animal in the
cornfield."
"I know that." He gave an
audible sigh. "I was wondering what it is."
"Afraid it might eat you,
city boy?"
"Considering the options at
this point--" He broke off to slap the mosquito that was
probing its way toward his jugular. "Let's go. Maybe we can
find the main road from here."
Lillian fell in behind him,
her Chuck Taylor All Stars pounding out a cadence against
the gravel. He'd complained about the sneakers and her
T-shirt before they left for the evening. The jeans he
tolerated--they showcased enticing snatches of her skin
through the many holes. When she saw his outfit, Lillian
rolled her eyes.
"You said we were going to a
boat party." He brushed imaginary lint from the sleeve of
his navy blazer and ignored her derisive snort.
"This isn't Long Island. It's
not that kind of party."
They arrived to the aroma of
bratwursts sizzling and popping on the grill. Jet-skis
roared through the bay and children chased each other along
the shore. Lillian's bikini-clad best friend felt the need
to hug him, imprinting an oil slick on his blazer. He still
wore the sweet odor of coconuts--no doubt attracting every
mosquito within a five-mile radius. Leaving early had been
Lillian's idea, the inadvertent wrong turn, his.
The footsteps behind him
halted. Gordon glanced over his shoulder. Lillian's T-shirt
wavered.
"What are we doing?" she
asked.
"Trying to find the main
road."
"I mean … you ... me ... us."
He knew what she meant. At
first he'd found the contrast exhilarating. He was NYC,
summers in the Hamptons, a vintage Jag that spent most of
its time in the shop. And Lillian was--he slapped another
mosquito--corn-feeds in the YMCA parking lot, the county
fair, a Girl Scout.
Last month, he slipped her
into Manolos and Prada and showed her off to his friends.
The other night, her brother had scrunched a John Deere cap
on Gordon's head and pushed him toward left field. An
innovative game where, upon reaching home base, players
received a cup of foaming, lukewarm beer. Not surprisingly,
Gordon stayed sober.
When had their summer fling
changed? What had it changed into? She shuffled across the
road, away from him. He neglected to shoo the mosquitoes
until one sneaked inside his shirt and added a sting just
above his heart.
"I just don't know what we're
doing anymore," she said from across the road.
"Neither do I."
She stomped her feet, a
frustrated sound that left a fine layer of grit on his skin.
The silence settled around them again, punctuated by
Lillian's hitched breathing.
"Sweetheart," he said. "Are
you crying?"
"No," came the muffled reply.
"Did somebody say something?
One of your friends?" He ran his hands through his hair.
"Christ, it was my mother, wasn't it? What did she say to
you?"
"Actually, she was very
nice."
"She did mention my taste in
women has improved dramatically."
A hiccup or a giggle? He
couldn't tell. "Your mother seemed to like me," he ventured.
"Are you kidding? She brought
out the good sherry. She adores you."
"So what do you think?"
Gordon shrugged although he knew Lillian couldn't see him.
"Would they get along?"
"The only thing they have in
common is the same color nail polish."
"Really?" He hadn't noticed.
"Kindred spirits then." Gordon paused and let the mosquitoes
fill the quiet for a moment. "Think there's a chance for
their offspring?"
"Oh, Gordon."
How did she do it? How did
she say his name with so much sweetness and just a hint of
admiration? Or was it love? He didn't know. He hated
nicknames in general, and Gordo in particular. Because of
that, he'd never called her by one, not Lil, nor
Lilly--unless he called her sweetheart.
"So." He glanced
around--again, not that she could see him, not that he could
see much of anything but Lillian's white Tee. "You grew up
around here?"
"About twenty miles south.
It's not like we had a cornfield in our backyard." She
kicked at the ground and pebbles scattered. "Well, there was
one down the road from us."
"A guy could get used to
cornfields."
"What are you saying?"
"I don't know." He didn't, so
why not admit it? "I do know that I've never called anyone
sweetheart before. And I know if I have to be lost, I'm glad
it's with you."
"So you ran out of gas on
purpose?"
He laughed. "Believe me, I
haven't intentionally run out of gas since I was seventeen."
Now that was a giggle. The
cornstalks rustled. A slight breeze chilled his sweat-soaked
skin and chased the mosquitoes away. "So. You ... me ... the
cornfield. What next?"
The white T-shirt shrugged.
"I've never been stranded in a cornfield with a guy before."
"I don't believe it." He took
a step toward her side of the road and was rewarded with the
sound of her footfall. "That makes me your first."
"I guess, in a way, you are."
They met in the center of the
dusty county road. He traced his fingertips over the
contours of Lillian's face. Her skin was slick from clammy
air, sweat, and tears. Her hands worked their way through
his hair and around to the back of his neck. He was about to
pull her in for a sultry kiss when Lillian yelped.
"What?" He spun around,
expecting to confront the beast from the cornfield. "What is
it?"
She caught him and ran her
fingers over the welts on his neck, a move that tantalized
and satisfied all at once. "You have a million mosquito
bites!"
"I'm sure it's not that
many," he said, his tone dry.
"I think I have some ointment
in my backpack."
Gordon let her fuss, let her
dab the bites with sticky cream that would ruin his linen
shirt. The ointment wouldn't help, but he didn't care. He
wanted to remember the feel of her touch and how she smelled
after walking for miles on a hot August night.
When she crouched to tuck the
ointment back in the knapsack, he said, "Damn, you really do
have everything in there." Only this time, he said it with
admiration. A guy could get used to that, too.
"Well, almost." She sighed.
"We still don't have a map."
"That's okay, sweetheart." He
clasped Lillian's hands and tugged her to her feet. "We'll
find our way without one."